Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Two Became Three...

As you know I have been MIA lately.

Not because I don't have projects to share, because believe me I do.

But, because the biggest DIY project I have ever tackled was in the works - and my husband was afraid I would spill the beans.


My husband and I have been married almost 7 years (October 3rd will officially mark 7 years). I will not go into details, just because this is a time to be positive and excited and sometimes thinking about the past makes me sad. But, early into our marriage I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome). From the beginning we were aware it would be difficult to get pregnant. But, at the beginning I had just turned 21 and we thought once we were ready some fertility meds would do the trick. Let's just say it isn't that easy and we soon learned out the hard way. Many many years of the hard way.

Lets fast forward to October 2011, as we celebrated our sixth wedding anniversary during a nice getaway in Gatlinburg, TN, we had a long heart to heart. Talking about our future. Talking about what we had been through. We realized we have a great relationship, for real we hardly EVER fight or argue, honestly I can't remember our last argument. We realized maybe we just weren't meant to be parents. We realized we spent to much time/energy thinking, wishing, dreaming, crying about the fact that it hadn't happened to us. We realized we had become jealous of every other person that was experiencing being pregnant and expanding their families. We realized we began comparing ourselves to them, wondering why we were not given those same blesses. We realized we had to release all of those negative thoughts and move on, without trying - without thinking of being parents, at least for a little while.

In 2012, we decided to take our "baby savings" and get me braces (these puppies are expensive) and install a privacy fence (which was completed in August, I know I need to post about it!!). So basically we decided to blow that baby bundle :)

The entire month of August I wasn't feeling great. My husband mentioned maybe I should take a pregnancy test - as I gave him the evil eye, since I knew it would be negative and just break my heart, I half heartily agreed to take it. I took it and threw it on the bathroom counter and immediately left the room - I'm telling ya I thought it was going to be negative. After an hour my husband asked me if I had checked it and I sadly said I couldn't take looking at a negative test right now so if he could just go throw it away that would be fine. He understood and went into the bathroom, suddenly he came running out smiling with a tear falling down his cheek and I just knew. I just knew it was positive. We proceeded to take four more test - you know, just to test for accuracy :)

Our first appointment is this Friday, yeah my Dr made me wait FOREVER! We slowly broke the news to our family, one family member at a time, and then Friday we posted it on Facebook and received an overwhelming response from all of our friends/family. I know some people think we posted about it early. But, after waiting 7 years, I couldn't wait any longer. It was personally decision I will never regret.

I was MIA because my husband knew if I typed on this blog I would spill the beans. I'm pretty sure only three people read this blog, if that some days :), but he wasn't taking any chances. So, that explains my long unexpected leave.

Now I promise this blog will post about my pregnancy and give weekly updates - maybe a new Friday/Saturday series? If you don't want to read about it, then you can kindly skip those post. But, we are thrilled/excited/overwhelmed/nervous/etc and I am sure this blog will become an outlet of some sort for me as I travel this untraveled path in my life.

Oh yeah, I have many projects to post about too :) If you have made it this far bless your heart! And if you are checking out my blog even though I haven't posted in forever, thanks for sticking around :)


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